Skip to main content

I am free...

are you happy daddy?
I am not your obstruction anymore,
neither am I a burden anymore;
actually, I was never.

Never did I come your way,
I always did what you said,
I even cleaned those stinking liqour glasses you left;
but I was always a prey to your fray.

why you used that belt on me?
oh,it pains!
your rough hands on my cheeks one after the other,
oh,it pains!

I could never figure out what my fault was.
I know I wasn't good in studies,
I know I couldn't cook food that well,
I know I couldn't wash those clothes that clean;
but were these faults that gruesome?

I knew not how other children felt,
I knew not how they could smile, and laugh;
I knew not how they could study, and play so well;
I knew not how a normal heart did beat.

the only things I was familiar with,
were your angry words,
my swollen red marks,
my swollen eyes,
and two fluids,your sweat, and my tears.

I don't remember my eyes ever dry at home,
or ever fearless at school,
or ever happy for your sake.

the last thing I wanted you to use was,
that brown leather strip that hung on the wall;
of your all possessions,
I feared that the most.

this morning,after you left,
after you gave me my morning dose,
and bolted from outside that wicked door,
I met someone.

she called herself the fairy,
she came to free me of you;
she was in the bathroom,
packed in a plastic bouttle with a green wrapper.

she was white,
looked as milk,but smelled different;
she said her medium was sour, and poisonous,
and her name was,Phenyl.

I feel so relieved now;
no pains, no fear;
no father,no leather.

But I am not that angry from you,
as I am with mother;
you were always like this,
but why she left me to suffer.

I'l go up and ask her,
why she wanted to punish me like this;
as of now, I am still confused,
why are you crying??

6th March, 2012.
Labels:

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Ode on an evanescent flower

In shades of pink and shades of white, As an armor of a plucky knight; At a certain point of day in time, Thou beauty of the summer, thou shine. Three days for the life you wait, Three days to come off your adolescent age; Three days until that green bud sprouts, Three days until your Beauty you flout. Awaiting a time long you once shine, At a morning that all, but you, whine; No sorrow no sign of meloncholy you show, Even though this life you live is miniscule of a blow. Thine head held high with pride, Thine salute to the sun, big smile; Thine beauty above all at prime, Thou Beauty of summer, thou shine. This is the pride that envies me above all, The pride in spite of a life so small; A day thou have, a day that's all, Then too you live life so gay, so tall. With the cheer thou spread across horizons wide, With colours which as the sun, or even bright; The lesson you teach across generations wide, A life lived large is a
18 comments
Read more

The Midway

This is my entry to  https://housing.com/lookup I've always wondered what could be that one thing that one could do towards well being of others without letting go off one's own interests. That may sound a bit anti-noble but that is what is true. There is a certain mentality which does not let a person go an extra mile against one's own direction. That is a kind of optimism ice always been searching, ironically on my own track. But that search of the midway ended in the summer of 2009 while I was in high school. That day was just like any other day. I dressed up for school on my regular morning routine and left the house for the taxistand. I luckily found a taxi even before reaching the stand. When the taxi reached the stand, the driver got down to gather more passengers. A usual action done in the morning hours by the kind. I sat near the window, looking out and breathing the morning freshness. At that time, I saw something. Something that sent a chill down my spine a
13 comments
Read more

Old letter, New envelope.

An old Physics teacher, the one whom I looked up to, once told me it doesn't matter what you know. What matters is if you can tell what you know. He was referring to my very disturbing habit of eating up steps while proving theorems. I always used to skip the very obvious steps thinking the examiner would know that I know. Not surprisingly, as it seems now, I lost marks here and there. But after that brief talk which was more of a lecture though, and a couple more, I realized what he was trying to tell and I did correct those mistakes. But today, four  or five later, I find the saying true, but in a different setting. Today we see people commenting on various political parties, their ideologies, social issues, their causes and criticism, preach feminism with blindfolded eyes, and propaganda of all sorts. These people sit in their comfort zones, in their warm rooms with phones and computers with thousands of rupees, with good internet facilities that too is not cheap in any existi
7 comments
Read more